I’m sure our readership has gone down to the lack of posting by Joshua and due to my infrequent, irritated rambling. Sorry about that. It just seems like a lot of sucky things have been happening. But they have been happening in the midst of a lot of really good things too. And I’ve made a decision. After reading Janiece’s blog, and Erika’s blog, I’ve realized that, yes, crappy, shitty things (some quite literal in the world of toddlerdom) will happen, but I can give control of my responses to what happens in my life over to God.
I haven’t liked the way I’ve been feeling lately, and I do feel, as shn said, like a character in Karma Incorporated, bad things constantly happening. Three days ago, I was on my way into the bathroom, and I can’t quite explain how, but I kicked the door with my foot, and I think I have a hairline fracture. That might explain why my foot turned green and purple and is swollen. It feels better, though it still hurts.
I can choose to be all upset about it (one MORE thing!!!), but I have chosen not to. I am choosing to give thanks in all circumstances, to be content with where I am and what happens, to be joyful and give glory to God for the things that take place in my life. I have a lot to be grateful for, including God’s presence in my life, so I am choosing to celebrate those good things.
Shitty stuff, it’s going to happen, that’s a part of life, but I’m not going to let those things define who I am. I am going to stop waiting for 2006 to be a better year and start choosing to have a better perspective on my life now. Not to say I’m not going to acknowledge those downsides, but that my life is defined by more than those things.
I hope that makes sense.