I found out yesterday that a friend of mine is struggling through what s/he believes about Jesus. This person, who is deeply involved in spirituality, theology, church, and a social gospel, is someone who shared of lot of my same values as far as faith matters are concerned. It was disheartening to find out that this person no longer shares those values and is questioning everything s/he has been taught all through life. I don’t expect people to accept what they have been taught all their lives, but I thought this kind of doubt in one’s faith usually comes about a decade earlier in life. I guess I’m wrong.
I’m usually fine with people leaving Christianity because of peripheral issues in their lives (i.e., bad examples of Christians or of churches, or having never really understood the point in the first place, etc.), because I usually find those things to not be central issues, and hope that they will get past them and come back to finding their identity in Jesus. Perhaps maybe that’s not where they ever had their identity in the first place, and I would love to see them do something about that. But I get thrown for a loop when people, who I thought really “got it,” “it” being what the Christian life is really about, decide to turn from it.
Questions, doubts and fears start welling up within me, and yesterday, I found myself in tears. Most of our friends in Dallas don’t share the same faith as we have, and one thing that has been hard for me for a long time is that desire to be understood on a sub-surface level by those to do. To not have to explain what I mean when I talk about my faith, or wade through the differentiating vocabularies used, to not have to feel like I must defend what I believe against what others do or don’t. To feel the freedom in relationships where there is enough trust to be vulnerable enough about what I believe and have it be “gotten.”
Then, while finishing up my reading for my weekly Bible study, I read this, and was comforted:
“I am amazed that you are so quickly deserting Him who called you by the grace of Christ, for a different gospel; which is really not another; only there are some who are disturbing you and want to distort the gospel of Christ. But even if we, or an angel from Heaven, should preach to you a gospel contrary to what we have preached to you, he is to be accursed! As we have said before, so I say again now, if any man is preaching to you a gospel contrary to what you have received, he is to be accursed! For am I now seeking the favor of men, or of God? Or am I striving to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a bond-servant of Christ.” Galatians 1:6-10